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NHK Studio
Park with Toshi
1997.06/07.XX
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About his childhood:
t. I'm from Tateyama, Chiba. I'm the 3rd son of the three brothers.
I was very fat. I liked baseball. I was a Giants fan.
About music:
t. My mother was a piano teacher, so we had a piano in our house. I
didn't do any pianolessons. I was good at singing, but didn't try
any contests. I loved to sing alone in my room, playing piano or the
guitar. I only practice the piano and the guitar to be able to
acompany my songs. I sang every kind of music. I could sing in very
high tone, so I could sing womans songs. My teacher told me to sing
on the bus during the school journey. I sang "Gampeki no
hana" in front of my friends.
You have the image that you only sing the Beatles songs or
something.
t. I began to listen to the foreign songs later.
Baseball Club:
t. I belong to the brass band club at my junior high school. I
played ¿?. I joined the club later than other members, so I could
not play the flute or the saxophone. When I was at the 3rd grade, I
went to another school (their school was divided into two) and I
joined the baseball club in the new school. I've been with Yoshiki
since kindergarden. We formed a band when we were at the 1st grade
at the junior high school.
The white and black guitar:
t. I bought this guitar when I was at the 1st grade of my high
school. KISS, Aerosmith and other hard-rock bands were popular then.
We played their songs. We played at the school festival. I had my
hair cropped close. There are 4 or 5 members in the band. We came to
Tokyo after we graduated from high school. Since I was a little
child I've been suffering from an inferioty complex. I've been
felling lonely and wanting to be loved or be friendly. I believed
that they would not accept me if I could not be famous and great.
While I had an inferiority complex I tried to gain my popularity to
keep up apperance.
Toshi had an inferiority complex?
t. Yes, I did. I didn't notice then, but looking back I did. I
wanted to be in the middle of the classmates when I was in school.
Otherwise I could not stand the situation. I joined the rock band
because I wanted to be famous. I stood for the school commitee to be
popular. I tried to be noticeable. I wanted them to turn to me and
love me. I was very sensitive to other people's mood. I could not
speak frankly or straightly. I was always afraid that I should be
disliked if I said such things. I was too sensitive to other
people's mood to accept myself.
You look strong and convinced in the video.
t. I acted so. I was afraid.
How could you take such a definant attitude?
t. I was very much afraid of myself to that extent. I was weak and
could not fell safe unless I I wore such a lot of things on me. I
would be broken unless I defense myself with "Status" and
with "honor". We got popularity. We succeded. We looked
for the world. We started from a live house and we conjured
"Budokan" and "Tokyo Dome". I was full of
ambition, but never satisfied. However high you may go, you'll never
reach anything. I thought that I would be successfull if I could be
strong. But I wasn't happy. The more I made up myself, the further I
go from myself.
But you gave us so much "dreams" and "hopes".
t. I felt pressured to think that I should act so and I should do
well as they expected I was empty and felt painfull. X Japan became
too big... instead of my will.
Everyone has dreams, but very few people can realise their dreams.
t. You tried hard and your dreams come true.
You made your own image with the mass media and you succeeded. Are
you asking too much?
t. It depends. It was a very painful life for me.
About solo-work. Did you realize that there is a large gap between
your solo and the band?
t. I wasn't happy after I succeded both as solo and as the band. It
was not my happiness. I wanted to be loved and praised, so I was
happy at the moment, but I became uneasy at the next moment. It was
not what I wanted. I wanted to be un-armored.
About "Hamlet":
t. I'm ashamed of it.
Was it good for the band?
t. I was just looking for something else.
Do you want to give people deep impression as an "artist
Toshi"?
t. It depends on the people's minds whether I can make them move. I
don't have any ambition to win by fighting against something or by
making up myself or aming too high. It's another side of the
inferiority complex. I deceived myself. I want to re-gain my true
nature by going down a little bit lower.
[Fans Questions]
About hide-tribute concert:
t. There will be an official anouncement soon.
About his future:
t. I want to live as I really want to live. I couldn't say such a
thing before. I want to live purely. I was too sensitive of other
people's mood. I was just a deal or a business interest.
X Japan's reunion:
t. I don't know.
How many octaves can you sing?
t. I don't know. About 3?
What do you want to tell us by your songs?
t. To live purely.
Hometown festival:
t. I haven't been back to my hometown for several years.
Toshi's dream:
t. To live simply.
When only one of your prayers will be heard, what do you want to
wish?
t. It's difficult. I don't know.
What kind of woman do you like?
t. Those who live truely.
Will you have your hair grow long again?
t. No, I won't.
The funniest thing?
t. My Hamlet.
About internet:
t. I look into it sometime, but I'm not good at it.
Most favorite song among your songs?
t. Mori to kaze no tabibito. |
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ThanX: xjapan.de, M.H.
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